I am first a follwer of Jesus Christ. My goal is to daily transform, becoming more like him. Second, I am a mother of three young children who make my life crazy fun. We are also expecting a baby in May 2010. I love being silly, but know when to be serious too. My husband is an amazing partner in this journey and we enjoy creating great memories with our kids. Life sure has lots of opportunities for that!
Tonight I came in and grabbed you out of your bed. I filled your drink with more water because that's all you wanted, but then I held you on the floor and rocked you back and forth in my arms.
Tonight you looked up into my eyes and smiled your little grin with your sweet crooked bottom teeth and your eyes that twinkle. It was a smile of pure happiness. A smile that said so much, while saying so little.
Tonight tears filled my eyes as yours drifted off so quickly. Tears knowing how many nights I missed. How many times I didn't get to rock you to sleep when all you really wanted was a simple glass of water.
Tonight I thought of all the times that you needed more than water. When you were scared, when you were sick, when you were hurting. I thought of all the times you needed a Mommy's love and you didn't get to have it. Nights when all you had was you.
Tonight I remembered that you always had Jesus by your side, even when it looked like you were alone. He kept you alive when you could have been lost. He kept you here for my sake, though he could have taken you home for himself.
Tonight I felt thankful. Thankful that He saved you for me. Thankful that I have so many nights ahead, to rock you and hold you and kiss your sweet forehead as you drift off to sleep. Thankful that you are comfortable enough to drift off so quickly in my arms.
Tonight I think my love for you is deeper. Tonight you are even more my child.